Moment of Truth

Well, tomorrow is when I find out. Tomorrow is the meeting for the Academic Requirements Committee, where my fate will be decided. I've done my best this weekend to ignore that. I didn't really want to be constantly stressed out knowing this was coming, but here it is, nonetheless, and I realize that I will probably wake up tomorrow morning to a call from them letting me know their decision.

Or they'll need some clarification on something, or to laught at me and tell me I'm screwed, or something along those lines.
I'm really half expecting to either hear back that it was denied or not hear from them at all, and have to call them later on in the afternoon to ask if they had reached a decision yet. Hopefully the statement I got from Professor Arrow was adequate to convince them. Hopefully, seeing as I wrote the thing, and she pretty much just signed it.

It's an odd kind of tension though, because, though it is extremely important, and I should be really stressed out, in some ways I'm not, I'm glad, and happy to be this close to having a definitve answer and knowing where I stand one way or the other. If it works out, I'm done, that's it, no more college. If not, I'm screwed, but it's out in the open because it's not like I can lie about it any further after that point. Tomorrow is the last day this will ever weigh on my conscience, and for that I'm glad. I worked my tail off, and procrastinated my tail off dually to get to this point. What I head tomorrow is the product of something years in the making. Damn I make that sound epic.

But then again, it is. It's the single biggest event leading up to my departure there is.

So, Christy, wish me luck. I know that half my friends only want me to go because it's something I want, and I know you might be part of that group. But all the same, wish me luck. Do it. Right now. Outloud. Louder. Come on, it's a new place, you can be louder than that. At least you don't have to worry about shit stench wafting into your mouth if you open it too wide. Now we're talkin.




Oh, and I consolidated my college loans today and locked in a low interest rate before rates start going up on the 1st of July. Lucky me. $18k.