Ya Know?

You know that feeling you get when you unwittingly find out that the girl you like back home that is, in no small part, the reason you've been single all this time, has a boyfriend now and there's really absolutely nothing you can say because well, you moved to Japan and it was your choice and that's how things work out sometimes, and not even the thought that you've got another year and a half for life to twist and change before it's even really an issue but that doesn't make you feel any better?

Yea, probably not, huh. Well, it sucks a little bit.

Time to go numb for a bit I guess.