I suppose you could say since this is my blog, you could look into it and see my cynic's reflection. But I think as long as we're talking mirrors here you should take a good look at yourself. And contemplate just how much you wish it were my reflection looking back, cause it's a mirror, so it'd be yours. And I'm hot.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

A Disturbing Observation

I just wasn't feelin it today. I fear the worst. I wanted to, but well, I just didn't give a shit today at work. I wasn't interested, not in my kids lessons, not in my diplomat lessons. I've started every sentence in this entry with I.

I suppose it's that, well, this job has started to mean more to me as a paycheck than as a rewarding intercultural exchange. I don't know what happened. Botrill thinks it's cause today was Monday. It is awful sudden for me to have checked out completely. I suppose I should give it some time and see how things play out.

But, sadly, I'm filled with this feeling like I don't want to do this anymore. I spend all my time working, and not experiencing Japan. That's to be expected I suppose seeing as I have, well, a full time job and that would be true anywhere, but, I feel like I haven't really once gotten to really enjoy myself, or my surroundings here, and that's just not right.

I'm going to start looking for another job.

posted by ~David~ at 11:14 PM

1 Comments:

Blogger C said...

when I last talked to you, you were downloading and watching movies. Sometimes I think we have more time than we think... I've been awake for 10 hours, and so far today I've baked in the cancer beds and done a lot of typing and backspacing. There is more time, you just have to find it and exploit it. And f-you for the Joan Rivers comment. Though I would have sex with her, probably.

6:41 PM

 

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