(K) The Phone Call

So I called her, and she picks up, and says, "you didn't listen to the message did you?"
"What, the one where you said, 'don't call me back?' "
"Yea, that one."

Lemme give you some backstory here. That morning, she calls me and says, "we need to talk."
Let me tell you how much guys LOVE to hear that first thing in a conversation. By love I mean hate more than anything in the entire universe. It immediately puts us on the defensive. Especially when it's a conversation we don't wanna have. I asked her about what. She said, "about this. It's killing me."
"What the fuck is THIS?"
"Don't play stupid, David."
"No really, I don't know what you mean."
"Yes you do."
"You mean, whatever this is between you and me?"
"Yes David, and it's killing me."
So I told her I'd call her when I got off work.

When I asked her what she wanted to talk to me about, this is what she said:
"I've been thinking about what I want to say to you all day, and to be honest I can't think of anything."
Nothing better that demanding a serious conversation then not having any clue what to say.
So then she just kinda sits there on the phone, not saying anything, and I'm kinda glad she did that cause it gave me the momentum to start in on what I wanted to say. I asked her if she wanted to lead the conversation or me, and she said she just didn't know how she felt and how I felt and it was confusing. I offered to clear up my end for her.

So I let her know again, exactly how I feel, in no uncertain terms. This time it seemed to sink in a little, and I was happy for that. Even disregarding our ages, we have a difference in perspective that just isn't functional for a relationship. That, and we just don't get along really. We constantly argue. She's a pain in the ass for my personality type, and she can't handle being with someone like me either, cause someone like me doesn't wanna be with someone at all. Anyway, it was more long winded and well worded, and I wish I had a transcript, but oh well. The point is I set the record straight and that's that.

For the record, don't ever pull a confrontation on a guy in an aggressive angry tone of voice when you want to clear things up and you're hoping they tell you they like you. If you have to ask, and you feel like you have to take that tone to get the conversation, the answer's already as clear as what he's going to tell you when you push him far enough into that corner to fight back.