Bad Dreams Because They're Good Ones.

I had another dream last night about smoking. Lol. It's funny, I can't tell if I have these dreams because my body wants nicotine, or because I think about quitting a lot and how much giving up now would suck.

Anyway, I had this dream last night I was housesitting or something, I dunno, one moment it was my propert, the next it was someone else's who was on vacation, the next it was my friend's who was there with me. Either way, the property was huge, had a swimming pool and all these open sconces with flames and stuff I dunno, some impressively rich house. And man, we were smoking up a storm. Like, I was smoking two or three at a time, and just puffin away till the filter melted.

Kinda sad that my body would betray me in my sleep like that, cause I always feel guilty after I do it. I wake up and I think, "Damnit! I can't believe I smoked!" but then I realize that I didn't, and it was just a dream, but that feeling like either I smoked or I should be smoking still remains. It's always like that though in the morning. I always thought it was the crappy feeling from having smoked the night before, but it's still here now that I've quit, and I realize it's that my body has gotten used to nicotine in the morning.

They always say the cravings are worst in the morning, cause it's the longest you ever go without a cigarette most times. But, why now? I haven't smoked in a month and a half, why do mornings still affect me most? Eh, force of habit I guess.