Huh. That Was Interesting

Well now. I woke up this morning and called in sick to work. I'm a dumbass for doing that too, cause I really need the money. Oh well. Because I worked overtime, I don't actually really lose any money. Actually, I make more for the same number of hours.

I looked at my entry from last night and didn't remember writing it. The drunk snuck up on me rather quickly last night. I didn't even realize I was getting that bad until I was lying in bed to go to sleep, rolled over, and suddenly had the spins. I got up and made myself vomit, then promptly passed out. Jin-Ro is the devil.

I'm also a dumbass for drinking myself to sleep, but it sure did work.

I'm not gonna beat myself up about this one, even though I probably should. I have every right to feel the way I do, and well, shit I said it, so I must have meant it a little, and frankly, I do hate her, in a very selfish, you didn't want me so I hate you kind of way. It's childish and I acknowledge that, but I can't just not feel it.

She was right about me getting all emo around her, and last night was no exception, especially saying what I did. So, I guess it's time for me to be a hardass and just suck it up. I'm gonna have to be around her in social situations, so, there's no point gettng all worked up.

It's time, once again, to go numb for the sake of social well-being. Even though it's gonna be somewhat difficult if word gets around of what happened. Though, I don't really think Natascha is going to make that anyone else's business but ours.

All in all: eh. Oh well.