Lalala

I'm frustrated at the moment, because it seems like no matter who I talk to, they've all got some job or other lined up. Everyone it seems has an interview or has a new job, or you know, just so happened to be the first person to post their resume for a new listing, and got called like two seconds later.

There are so many people looking for jobs right now, and I know my lack of luck is proportional to the competition, but, *sigh*.

I'm trying to be relaxed about it all, takin it easy and enjoying the time off, but admittedly it's a little hard when I know that I do in fact need to be making progress towards being employed again.

Amid the faxes from Saruhasi, and the not getting paid, and the rest of the crap that's going on with Nova, it's just shitty to watch jobs fall into my friends' laps and not mine, though that's not to say I'm not happy for them. It makes me happy to see that they are going to be able to stay, I just want to be a part of that group. I want to be able to say, "yeahp, I have a new job" when someone asks, and look at my girlfriend without secretly wondering if I'm going to have to leave her because I can't stay in Japan.

Honestly that's what would be the worst, is leaving Saki.
We met up yesterday for dinner, and the most amazing thing happened. We basically spoke the entire time in Japanese. I mean, there were a couple words tossed in in English now and again when I just wanted to really make sure I said exactly what I meant, but other than that. It was crazy. I just kept catching myself and smiling because of it.
Also, we were talking about wedding cake cutting procedure, and how Japanese adopted it from us but they forgot to actually feed the cake to one another, which, at least in my opinion, is a big deal. So after I explained it, Saki takes a spoonful of the desert we were eating and feeds it to me, and then I grab the spoon and do the same for her, and we just kinda looked at each other, smiled, and moved on with the conversation. But there was something there. Can't quite put my finger on it, but, it was there.

Ok, anyway, more later. Wish me luck getting a job.